Journal Entry: Wed Oct 22, 2014, 2:50 PM
Excuse me while I get real with you guys. Spoilers ahead for some people.
A Kismesis isn't abusive. A KISMESIS IS NOT ABUSIVE.
In trollian culture, there is a quadrant called a Kismesitude- the black feelings quadrant. A healthy Kismesitude is not abuse. It's an outlet, of sorts, to get out all anger and frustration at a person. The thing is that they aren't temporary. Vriska and Eridan are a perfect example of a good Kismesitude.
They were completely disgusted by one another. Not their actions (though that added fuel to the fire) but their entire existences. Now, this is only a portion of a Kismesitude. They wanted to fight one another, to taunt them, to push the other to the breaking point- but they didn't want to kill one another. They looked down on each other, finding their own self more superior than the other, but they never used their castes to prove dominance.
A kismesis pushes you to the edge and pisses you off so much that you want to become better. You want t prove that you're better. You want to prove your worth. You're egged on by their taunts and ridicules, but not in a bad way. In a way that makes you want to punch them to prove that they're wrong. You want to come back, growl, bite, kick, scream, punch, and generally embarrass the other by proving that they were wrong.
It fuels you to become a bigger person. To better yourself and prove your Kismesis wrong.
We see a unhealthy kismesitude in Terezi and Gamzee. She claims to be his kismesis- he doesn't claim anything about her. They egg one another on, but in a bad way. We see this when she's crying, apologizing for nothing when they fought on the island. Their fights were far too violent to be considered healthy.
A healthy kismesitude (which really isn't very healthy to begin with) has injuries you can recover from and- for the masochists and extremes- things that will leave scars. I.E. bruises, broken bones, cuts and scratches, etc.
They were literally trying to kill one another. That is not kismesitude. Not at all.
Having been in three abusive relationships, I can relate to how Terezi acted. Crying for him to stop, pleading for him to stop, blaming herself for something that she had no control over, etc. That is abuse. From this, we can assume her justice-complex got the better of her and his caste was generally more... Deadly... that hers ever was. He- sober or not- wouldn't be able to control himself in any form of a kismesitude. He would simply be too strong.
We can also assume that when she did try to fight back, he only got more violent. Looking back on my past relationships (which hurts to do) I can say, without a doubt, this happened. We can assume, from her crying, that she had been in a situation where he was beating her senseless- beyond the boundary of healthy kismesitudes- and possibly even bringing her near-death. He was poisoning her mind with things she would never have done before- Faygo, her lost pants, getting her sight back, etc.
When people say Gamzee is a cute baby that should be protected- as much as I am in love with his well constructed character- I have to say fuck you, no, rethink what the hell you just fucking said.
Karkat was barely able to shoosh pap him for a short period of time. He is murderous and no matter how you look at it, he is a terrible influence on anyone. Having to "do the devil drugs" like eat sopor slime just to stay sane/calm is a terrible flaw. He would never be normal. He would never be calmed. He is murderous and cannot control his strength- as well as exuding his his strength at improper moments such as this.
I love villainous characters. I do. I love seeing that authors know how to construct an asshole and carry it out without mercy. I love evil characters because without the bad, we cannot know what good is. I love evil characters because my mind is twisted and I like seeing how their mind works and how they carry out their demented deeds.
I love Gamzee's character, don't get me wrong.
I'm just smart enough to realize that no, he should not be protected. No, he does not have a good side. No, he should not be the one who came to life if any of the characters could. No, he is not a precious little baby.
He, Caliborn, and Eridan were made evil and said by Hussie to be villains for a fucking reason. So shut the fuck up and reevaluate your damn life if you think that.